I’m more than halfway done with the challenge! Definitely feeling some improvements overall. I do have really low lows, and I still haven’t made significant headway with controlling my emotions. I do see the most improvement on how I reconfigure plans and expectations when things don’t work out as planned. I most need improvement on how to answer the question “How are you doing?”... When people ask me in person, I need to figure out a response that does not involve me spilling out all my emotions. Is it better to say “OK!” and move on, or to open up a bit? Hmm. Something I need to marinate on. Finding the balance is key, but I never believe in being false. I really hate finding out that a friend had been through a rough time and I could have helped in some way, but instead find out about it afterward. But I also don't want to be a permanent Debbie Downer. That's not my nature, and it's been very odd feeling like that lately in a way I haven't been able to shake off quickly.
Day 16:
Something I'm Thankful For: Saltines and water with fresh ginger thrown in. The nausea from last night’s fried dessert bonanza has made me feel so awful, and other than a bowl of soup consume that a neighbor forced me to have, crackers and water are all I've been able to stomache!
Challenge O' The Day: Functioning on no appetite and the aforementioned nausea all day. Fun times!
Lesson Learned: On the plus side, I now have zero interest for any fried foods for a while. My diet is thanking me!
Daily Insight: Feeling lousy and having to work is a bad combination. I've been thinking of the challenge I had when I feel myself getting snippy, to recognize my action and nip it in the bud. Obviously, I never fully expect to be "perfect", that's certainly not my goal. I just want to get to a place where I can feel like I fully respect myself, and recognize how to handle the different sides that rear their ugly heads, and especially when the chips are down. I've taken some books out of the library about optimism and positivity, so I'm hoping they can offer some insight into it. Looking forward to hitting the books!